Walking through the hurt

I have had many conversations recently with friends who are going through some painfully, intense situations. There are job losses, accidents, death, and many other things that are causing a great deal of hurt within their lives.

One friend mentioned to me that they just want the hurt to stop and go away. As soon as they said that I thought about the many times I have gone through incredibly painful situations and wanted the hurt to go away. It does eventually go away and I come out on the other side of the situation a lot stronger than before. Unfortunately we are a society that does not want to feel the hurt. We want to mask it and make it go away as fast as we can. This is why we self medicate. We numb the pain with so many things; drugs, alcohol, hobbies, reading, TV, the list goes on with what we can become addicted to that will numb the hurt we feel. There is a great line in the Lady Antebellum song, “Need You Now” that I love, “I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all”. I reflect on this lyric often. Usually when I’m struggling through a situation that I just want to go away. When I feel like I need to crawl in a hole and let things pass I remind myself that hiding, masking and numbing the hurt will prolong the healing that needs to take place in my heart. 

I would definitely rather feel the hurt than feeling numb about a situation. I need to walk through that hurt. There is a reason for what I go through and when I am on the other side of it I will be a lot stronger than I was before. It is OK to feel deeply and feel hurt. Our emotions are God given. It is what we do with them and how we respond to the hurt that will grow our character. 

When praying for my friends who are going through these situations I am always reminded of praying through the Psalms. There is hope! 

Do you try to numb the hurt you are going through? 


Thankful Day 17 & 18 Proof of Your Love

One of my favorite songs right now is “Proof of Your Love” by For King and Country. I am pretty sure I listen to this song at least once day! 🙂

Here’s the chorus of the song:

So let my life be the proof,
The proof of Your love
Let my love look like You and what You’re made of
How You lived, how You died
Love is sacrifice
So let my life be the proof,
The proof of Your love

Yesterday I realized that my running crew is definitely proof of God’s love. God brought a great group of friends in my life and below is a picture of some of them. I got through another half marathon and had a lot of fun. I know most of the runners hated the course and struggled but to me they all did great and accomplished their goals!

Here are some of us waiting on our marathon runner friends:

Some of the half marathon crew decided to stay and cheer on our marathon crew!

*”Proof of Your Love” by For King and Country, album “Crave”. I think everyone should go get this album! Right Lisa and Paula? 

Born in the USA? No.

Do you know the song “Born in the USA” by Bruce Springsteen? I love to sing along to this song every year on the 4th of July. My mom noticed it one year and jokingly said “Becky, you can not sing that song.” I looked at her questioning why I could not sing this song. Then I got it, I was in fact not born in the USA. So I decided to change the lyrics to suit me, “I was Born in the UK”! 🙂  This conversation has become regular on the Fourth of July. It happened during the fireworks show we went to on Wednesday.

With every fiber of my being I am an American who just happened to be born in England. 🙂

With all of that said, here are a couple videos I shot of the fireworks from the WBT 1110 am show on Wednesday night at Knights Stadium.

The middle of the show:


And the grand finale:


What did you do on the 4th of July this year?