Fearless and Fear Less

I’ve always wanted to be a small part of the One Word 365 movement but I honestly could not come up with just one word to focus on for a year. I had so many things I wanted to focus on! Just one word felt a little constricting and gave me less options about what I felt I needed to work on for the year. I also like to control things and well using one word meant giving up control on all the other areas of my life I decided needed a bit more work. For years I have been working on trust and grace.

This year is a bit different. After a few situations that have arisen I realized the need for one word and to really focus on what the Lord would show me through that one word. I have a great need and desire for things to change in my life and in order for those changes to take place, I need to be fearless and I need to fear less in my decision making. I want to take risks and know that whether I succeed or fail it’s okay. Taking risks are a small part of the journey that I am on. I don’t want to fear taking those risks anymore.

I’m pretty sure that I am breaking a rule within the One Word 365 movement with taking one word and making it two. If there is someone will let me know about that. 🙂

The photo below was taken years ago and is one that I will look to this year to remind myself to trust God, fear only Him, and let go of the things that cause me to be fearful. It’s time to be brave and fear less. It is time to feel un-stuck with where I am at and enjoy the journey.

Surrender

Surrender

 

My verse for the year:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5,6 (ESV)

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Lukewarm by Will Montgomery

I recently finished reading “Lukewarm” by Will Montgomery and I am pretty sure he begged me on Twitter to write a review. 🙂 I have been a “fan” of Will’s writing for a while, via his blog. Sadly, I have not read his first book “Polar Bear” but, I did read this one! That should count, right? I do read his blog on a regular basis.

Lukewarm is a fiction book about relationships. Romantic, friendship and family relationships we all have. It is written via the eyes of Luke, a thirty-something guy in Nashville trying to navigate his way through the relationships that surround him  and come out of the situations as unscathed as possible. This proves to be a little difficult as Luke is very opinionated and has lots of rules on how things should work. Even though Luke might be right about a lot of things, his roommate “B” and his sister Harvi don’t really want to hear what he has to say at first. Things don’t always work out perfectly, but in the end, Luke, “B” and Harvi all learn lessons that will help them with future relationships. The brother/sister interaction between Luke and Harvi was one of my favorite parts of the book. Will did a great job showing how much they love each other and look out for one another.

For Will’s first fiction novel, I felt he did a great job. I recommend picking up a copy and reading!

I look forward to the next book which I hope will he will finish before the end of next year!

Disclaimer: I bought Will’s book, all opinions are my own. 🙂

Lots of changes

There have been so many things taking place that I have neglected my blog. In the last several weeks I have quit one job and started another job. My sister has moved to Annapolis for a job promotion. I have taken two trips in one month to Annapolis, one to surprise my sister for her birthday and one to help her move some of her things.

My half marathon training started two weeks ago and has taken up some of my time as well. I am really excited for this season because my mom and dad are both going to be a part of the training. 🙂

To say I am exhausted is probably an understatement. I’ve been trying to do too much at one time. I booked the last couple of weekends full of events and really haven’t taken any time to rest. Truly rest. :/

But this week that is changing. I am taking time to rest and not take on so much stress.

I hope to be putting up some new blogs in the next week! I do have a review coming up with a book give-away.

What have you been doing the last couple of weeks???

Redemption

Years ago, I had the opportunity to write for the paper at my junior high school. I failed. Miserably. I was to interview some coach about their team. Instead fear and shyness took over. I may have asked two or three not well thought out questions and never turned in the article. I chose to write for myself from that day on. I rarely let people see the stuff pouring out of my heart onto paper. The failure and fear stayed with me for years. Hanging on like a wet piece of clothing, I desperately wanted to rip off.

It wasn’t until this week, that I fully understood how God redeemed that moment from junior high for me. A few weeks ago I agreed to interview Rebekah Snyder about her new book “Beyond Waiting”. We had emailed back and forth about the interview and agreed that I would come up with questions she would answer. UH OH! I felt the familiar fear and failure creep back up. I knew I needed to do this. It was that important to me.

The little shy, fearful girl needed to overcome and redeem something that was stolen all those years ago. I pushed the fear aside because of prayer. I prayed for a while about what questions I could ask Rebekah that would reflect her heart on why she wrote “Beyond Waiting“. What came out surprised me. I knew it was the Lord that gave me the questions to ask. I asked my mom if she read the post and her first question was “Did you come up with those questions?” and I replied “Yes, and I am proud to say that I came up with them but it was all God!”. God knew that I needed this moment in my life. To take back a time when fear and failure tried so desperately to destroy…my love of writing and asking thoughtful, get to the heart of the matter questions. I’ve always had a love of writing and it is probably why I read so much. I want to continually learn to be a better writer, expressing my thoughts and sometimes opinions in a way that others can relate to what I am communicating.

Slowly I started letting others read what was pouring onto paper but I was definitely selective and still very insecure about what I was writing. I was looking for a lot of affirmation and encouragement. I received all of that but not until this year did I realize how God has been redeeming that time in my life. I’m thankful for the ones that have encouraged me along the way.

Blogging is such a tricky thing. There are rules to go by and I am sure I have broken every single one of those rules. 🙂 I started writing this blog for the sole purpose to get my thoughts on to “paper”. I shared my blog with a small group of people at first. I really had no idea where this blog would go, I still don’t know where it is going. But I do know the readership has grown and the level of responsibility I feel has grown as well. I do know that the Lord is giving me the words to write on days when I feel there is nothing to say.

So here is to redemption of something that I love and cherish deeply!

Is there a dream you have had crushed only to see the Lord redeem it in a way you never thought would happen?

Craving Grace by Lisa Velthouse

Craving Grace by Lisa Velthouse


I love to read and write so doing a review should be easy for me right? When I decided to read and review Lisa’s book, I didn’t realize that writing the review would be so hard. I wanted a perfect review to come flowing from my fingertips to the keyboard, only to realize I wasn’t allowing grace to guide me through the writing process. I struggled. It is kind of funny because her book is all about grace!

I loved Lisa’s book and honestly felt like I was sitting down with a friend who was sharing stories that I personally could relate to. I even emailed her and told her half way through reading “I feel like you shadowed most of my twenties”. Her stories, are my stories.

Lisa talks about a time in her life where she fasted for 6 months from sweets. She called it the “Honey Project”. During that time she learned so much about grace because of times of triumph and failure. I believe some times I desire a time of fasting and not wanting to crave what I am fasting, that I focus on that aspect and not the lessons that come in between the start and finish of a fast.  I can feel failure creeping in and at times, I have given up. I’m a perfectionist at heart.

With “Craving Grace” I learned again that grace is more what I crave and have a difficult time extending that to myself. I will extend grace more freely to others but when it comes to my life, grace is not so freely given. I love how Lisa draws her readers into the ups and downs along the way of the “Honey Project” and the different parts of her life where she struggled to see God’s grace.

I definitely recommend this book to anyone that struggles with grace in their lives.

To order Lisa’ book, click on the picture above!

One last thing, there is a song by For King and Country named “Crave” that I listen to a lot that relates to “Craving Grace”.

To believe, to see

Hope is what we crave

And that will never change

So I stand and wait

I need a drop of grace, to carry me today

I received a copy of Lisa’s book in exchange for this review. All opinions are my own.